Sunday, May 4, 2014

The Single Life

I am becoming more and more obsessed with SoulPancake...I have just spent the last two hours watching video after video, and it's been a pretty hefty debate to figure out which one I wanted to share today. 

But, being very single and sometimes getting a little discouraged about it as I get older, I figured this was a good one to post.

I liked it. A lot. I liked how there are a lot more people out there looking for the same things in relationships. Sort of gives me faith in humanity. And I liked how it pointed out how important it is to take risks, even in relationships. I have a crippling fear of failing/being rejected/being painfully embarrassed, and this is no less true when it comes to anything to do with relationships. This past semester I met a guy at college and over the course of a few weeks I had developed a huge crush on him. But he was handsome, smart, athletic, stylish, kind, funny, the whole shebang, and I thought he was out of my league. I was too nervous to ever even indicate to him that I was interested because I was sure there was no way on earth he would ever be interested in me. At the end of the semester I passed him on campus once, and saw that he was holding hands with another girl. I'm happy for him of course, but as I look back I have realized that he made several indications to me that he could have been interested, I was just too afraid to see them. I'm not saying that if I had asked him out we would have started dating and eventually gotten married, I just want to point out that something could have happened. I was the only one who got in the way. From now on I'm going to try my best to be confident in myself, and not worry so much about possible failures. You never know what's going to happen in life, or what's going to not happen because of your choices.