Tuesday, March 28, 2017

8 Scriptures to Read When You Need Some Comfort

Religion is and always has been an important part of my life. And I've debated talking about religion on this blog because I want to make my content available to everyone and not exclude people who aren't religious, but I think it's fair to talk about something that means so much to me.

I often turn to scripture when I'm feeling overwhelmed, stressed, or any other negative emotion. The scriptures give endless valuable information to those who believe in them, but if I could sum up what they make me feel overall in one word, it would be comfort. In such a crazy, unpredictable world, it's always nice to get a reminder that God loves me and cares about me. So here are some of the verses that always give me the most comfort.

Matthew 19:26

“But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.”

Matthew 11:28 

“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

Isaiah 40:31 

“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”

John 14:27

“Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

Psalm 27:1

“The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?”

Joshua 1:15

“There shall not any man be able to stand before thee all the days of thy life: as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.”

Ether 12:27

“And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.”

Mosiah 4:9

“Believe in God; believe that he is, and that he created all things, both in heaven and in earth; believe that he has all wisdom, and all power, both in heaven and in earth; believe that man doth not comprehend all the things which the Lord can comprehend.”

Hope this lifted your day up a little! 

xoxo Anne

Monday, March 20, 2017

Obligatory Post

I've been trying really hard to write at least one blog post a week, which sounds a lot easier than it actually is. It's not the writing part, though, it's figuring out what to write.

Life is sort of at a pleasant stagnant for me right now. Nothing particularly amazing is happening, but nothing bad is happening either. Life is good.

I guess I have one thing: My anxiety was pretty bad yesterday. It was just making me feel very nervous and unsettled. I love church, but sometimes it gets very overwhelming because I have to be around a ton of people I sort of know but not well enough to run up and chat with them. There's also a lot of room-switching, which means figuring out where to sit every time. And treats afterwards mean mingling with people I don't know very well. It'st just a lot sometimes.

So yesterday I went to church, but halfway through the first hour I just needed to get out of there and go somewhere by myself. So I left early, which I've never done before unless it's been a "legit" reason. That was the thing though- I finally realized that my mental health is a legit reason. It's the same as me leaving early if I felt nauseous or had a really bad headache. So I left early, drove to look at the temple for a few minutes, and then went back to my apartment to read my scriptures by myself.

Do what you need to take care of yourself.


Wednesday, March 15, 2017

What Has Helped Me With My Anixety

You know that weird limbo you find yourself in sometimes where time feels like it's flying by, but at the same time so much is happening that you're surprised every time you look at a calendar? That's where I am right now. I think this is the fastest I've felt like a semester has gone by since I started college. And to be fair, everything seems easy to me after last semester (aka the worst semester of my life) but still, I can't believe we're almost halfway done with March! 

That being said, I know it hasn't been very long since 2017 started. Like, 2 1/2 months. But I've been thinking a lot lately, especially in the past couple of weeks, how much my anxiety has improved this year, and I feel like I should wait a little bit longer to say "this is what helped" but I've seen so much improvement this semester that I decided there's no harm in talking about what's helped so far. I still have anxiety, and it still gets really bad sometimes, but overall I have felt a lot better this semester than I have in a long time.

Last semester in late September was the worst my anxiety had ever been. I was in a really dark place, and luckily I was able to find some relief through music and writing, but it was a really, really difficult few months for me. And I know that my schedule had a lot to do with that-- my anxiety manifests itself mostly socially, so things like phone calls and conversations with strangers really aggravate it. And I was in a situation where I was making around ten phone calls a week to complete strangers before interviewing them, each call never failing to make me shake and sweat and panic. Writing for my school's newspaper was a required class for my major, so there wasn't anything I could do about it, but that leads me helpful thing number one:

1. I'm doing things that make me happy. We are all going to find ourselves in situations we don't like that we can't control. I mean, I'm studying journalism for goodness sakes, so I know I'm going to be calling strangers for the rest of my life (even though I never want to work for a newspaper again). For me, the joy I get out of writing and telling stories makes it worth it, which is a big deal. But when you can control what you're doing in your life, whether it's your job, your major, or how often you go out with friends, do what makes you happy. My friends tease me a lot about never socializing, but I need a lot of time by myself to decompress. I am completely happy with where I am as far as my social/volunteer/school life goes, and being OK with that balance has been key in improving my anxiety.

The next thing is another situation that isn't always controllable. I didn't even control this, it just happened and I got really lucky.

2. I have my own room. Every semester I've been at school so far, I've had to share an apartment with five other girls and share a room with one other person. Last semester I was in an apartment with only four girls, and even though I still shared a room, it was really nice to not have so many people around. Then one girl moved out, and the odds were in my favor and I got my very own bedroom. And my goodness, it is hard to describe what a luxury that it. Sharing a room always made me really anxious because I was constantly worrying about being too loud or having a light on too long or when I should ask her to turn the light off or if my stuff was in her way or feeling like she was judging my side of the room or if she could see what I was doing on my computer or a million other things that don't really matter, but you know, anxiety. I also got a lot less sleep last semester because as sweet as my roommate was, she was super loud in the morning and tended to have a lot of alarms go off for no reason. 

But seriously, just being able to come home after a long day of being surrounded by people and know that I can be completely alone for a few hours is indescribable. I've really needed this.

The last thing I'll talk about has a little bit of an intro: From January 10th for February 10th I was a vegan! I had read about it a lot over Christmas break and decided to try it for a month. I was going to write a blog post about it, but I honestly didn't have a ton to say since it wasn't really life-changing for me. The thing that surprised me the most was how easy it was most of the time (I used to hate vegans for saying that, so don't hate me) and how I just felt better overall. I didn't lose weight or see changes in my skin or anything, but I definitely felt better about what I was eating. 

That being said, being vegan has left an impression on me, and I don't try anymore, but I still find myself eating vegan 80 or 90% of the time out of habit. I'm not saying being vegan will cure your anxiety, but:

3. I've been eating healthier, and I know that has played its part in making me feel better. It's pretty simple actually: eating healthier makes me feel better overall, and that includes not only physical well-being but mental well-being as well. I don't worry as much about gaining weight or dying of heart disease (I wasn't eating that unhealthy before but you know, anxiety.) because I know what I'm putting in my body is good for me. I've also been making sure I work out a few times a week, and that combined with healthy eating has made me more confident in myself overall because I know I'm taking care of my body. 

Like I said, I'm not 'completely healed' or anything. I still worry constantly about everything, but I also notice little changes because they are significant to me. I will chase any relief from my anxiety. 

That's all. Thanks for reading, and I wish all of you lovely people the very best. xoxo

Monday, March 6, 2017

Hey You!

Yeah, you.

Here's a picture of a sunrise to remind you that the sun rises every day.

Tomorrow is always a fresh start.

You're doing better than you think you are. I promise.

If things aren't working out right now, they will soon.

Keep fighting for what you believe in. Keep fighting for yourself.

You da bomb.