Thursday, January 11, 2018

Why I Took a Break + Why I'm Back

I'm baaaaack.

So if you had been following me before, you probably noticed that I started posting on Instagram pretty often for a while, mainly about anxiety, and then stopped back in May.

I was really excited to start an Instagram account for Sondering Soul because I love the Insta platform and everything it can do when it comes to connecting with an audience. Long story short though, by just posting about anxiety I found it really hard to be positive. Anxiety sucks, and trying to make every post related to anxiety was forcing me to dwell on how it had messed up my day. Some people are really great at finding the good in everything, but I'm just not, and that was a struggle for me. I still liked the idea of Instagram, but I wasn't getting anything good out of it.

Recently I've been noticing a lot of correlations between focusing on my health (mental and physical) and my anxiety improving. I hadn't thought much further than that until the last couple of months when I've been learning a lot more about Instagram from a business standpoint, and have been reading some uber-inspirational books about going for your dreams.

I've fought with myself for weeks about whether or not I should start up an Instagram account again.

What if no one follows me?
What if I look like a wannabe?
What if people think I'm pathetic?
What if people make fun of me?
Why would anyone want to hear what I have to say?

Then a few days ago I picked up the book "Big Magic" by Elizabeth Gilbert.

Um, wow.

I don't saying "life-changing" very much, but this book has been life-changing so far. In the first chapter Elizabeth Gilbert listed a bunch of the ways we can be afraid of being creative, and she was listing word for word the things I had been worried about. It was like she was speaking to me personally.

It was the clearest sign I could get that if I want to do this, I need to do it now.

While my ultimate, ultimate major life goal is to be an author, health and anxiety are HUGE parts of my life, and I have long loved the idea of running an Instagram account talking about that. And if I can help other people through that, it would be a pretty amazing feeling.

I hope you enjoy. 💜

xoxo Anne

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